|SRS ERIN IS SRS: #1
||[Jun. 10th, 2011|01:48 am]
Very few things upset me like the underplaying or abuse of anxiety issues.
I am cool with your ignorance with countless other things, universe. I can look the other way for a long, long time while you express your opinions about my religion, my political views (as vague as they are), whatever. I am a very tolerant person. Honestly, my beliefs are going to either hold their water, or they won't. My political views don't matter. My appearance, my sexuality (or lack thereof, in my case), my class or status or whatever you want to call it, all of that, you can bash on it all you want and it really doesn't even phase me.
But anxiety is one of the few things that comes up far too often as the butt of jokes, or being used like an excuse - for a person who claims to have it, or a person who is claiming someone else is using it as an excuse - or just generally not correctly dealt with as a legitimate issue, and it infuriates me like none of those other things do.
Two of the big things I see are complete opposites: someone dismissing it as "not a real problem", or someone over-dramatizing and saying what they deal with is an "anxiety disorder" which suddenly becomes to blame for every little thing in their life. And it's all over the place, lately. Seems like this week I've seen both examples at least five times, most in unrelated incidents.
I don't know how to deal with something that hits so close to home for me, because my first impulse is to talk directly to the person and point out all the ways what they're saying is invalid, which will end with me coming across as a neurotic bitch. The second instinct I have is to do the super-passive "well, it makes me uncomfortable, but you don't have to do anything about it, it's okay," when... that's not what I want to say at all.
Because it's not okay.
It's being extremely closed-minded about an actual illness. A dangerous one, and one that's more than just "I can't do that, it makes me nervous," when something doesn't suit you. It isn't a solution to not having to do things you don't want to do, it's not a clean excuse to get out of something. It's frustrating, and it's terrifying, and it's messy, and a lot of times the things it interferes with the most are the things you do want to do. You can't always rationalize your way out of it, and you can't "just breathe, just relax" and be fine, because anxiety isn't rational and it isn't just a negative thought pattern, even if a thought pattern can be a trigger. It's a legitimate problem, and it's abused too much, and ignored even more often, and I'm honestly getting a little fed up with trying to exist in a world where I'm seen as either a drama queen, a lunatic, or a liar, as a result of people like this.
...I don't know. I needed to vent a little bit tonight. Sorry.